Am I cool or uncool? [CLICK] You are a Square! You are a total dork. The pocket protecter and thick-lensed glasses give it away. Try watching some popular TV.. Get yourself some fashion sense already! On the plus side, no wait hang on, there is no plus side! Nerdsville, population YOU! Cool quizzes at Go-Quiz.com

Haha!! I'm not as cool as i thought i am? but who cares about being cool? being nice with a close group of friends who dun gossip is so much better.

Maybe this also explains why i like the square shape so much..*shrugz*

Am I cool or uncool? [CLICK] You are Super-Cool! Woah! Step back - the future's so bright for you it's blinding me! You are the coolest of the cool. Everyone looks up to you as the benchmark for being coooool. The fonze was your grandfather. Any cooler and you'd freeze! WOO it's chilly in here. Cool quizzes at Go-Quiz.com

I gave all exact opposites of what i want and this is what i get... must be my alter-ego

Finally, my much awaited break away from Singapore. Going for a short trip to Bangkok with Kai. Going to be a shopping, sightseeing and leisure trip!!!!

Man, i am so happy and excited about flying away and taking a break from the hectic life in Singapore. I need to shop seriously.

:)

Man! three days in a row, and all three days, i had Francis as my instructor.

First 2 lessons were quite okie, actually very well. Got quite a lot of praise from her. But then again, today was a total disaster.

When i first started out, my engine kept stalling, my car keep jerking, and everything bad that u can imagine.Worst of all, she took me out on the public road today without even preparing me. And all hell broke loose, almost causing a few accidents!

After the whole lesson, she commented i am very timid, not daring enough to even go fast when there's no cars on the road. My gosh! I am still a beginner leh! And she was expecting me be a car racer? madness! okie okie.. i admit, even on the public roads, i was still very apprehensive about going fast.

I know i will be better next lesson even though she says i need to redo this lesson. And i will do well!

Time to eat more guts out there!! gonna ask mommie to cook for me!! haha!

My first time driving a car. Man.... it was horrible and tiring. And of course, not forgetting the cranky instructor.

You must have imagined that Francis is a man. NO! It was a cranky and cynical woman who's 46 but very motherly, always joking around to ease up the tension that i was having.

Was supposed to only learn lesson 1-3 which only covers things like moving off and reversing. But she taught me so much more... 3 lessons more but didn't record it in the book. I was shocked when she just told me to drive off into the circuit instead of me practicising my extremely basic lesson 1-3. And i felt so hamsterish, driving the circuit (which was just driving round and round) for like 30 times?!! Phew! driving is so difficult. But i think i will get better, and hopefully get to drive soon, drive to school and no need to squeeze along with the crowd on the train and buses. No more late night cabs anymore.

At least i was better than the car that was driving in front of me. The car was No. 31 and mine was No. 50. Car 31 practically was bouncing on the road, while i was cruising, even though the occasional engine stalling. And I'm so glad Cream is auto. I can never imagine myself driving a Manual car. The changing of gears is already killing me.

Okie okie. No more complaining. I am going to buck up and try to finish my driving lessons before i start school, or at the very least this year. Lessons tomorrow at 0835hrs. Better go rest!

Tata! sleep well my babies!

From www.talkingcock.com:

CUM IN ME SINGAPORE
[Sung to the tune of Count On Me Singapore, alternate lyrics by Kok Kok Klan]

There is a new law for us to follow
Just believe, just believe
We must make love for Singapore
To make babies, to make babies
Boys and girls, let's do our part
Stand together, butt to butt
Our birth rate is getting low, and we must stop it
To make babies, to make babies

There is a need to know sex is good and ain't a sorrow
So let's drop our pants and do what Steve Chia died for
I ejaculated in your ass, it's a disaster Singapore shares
Stop oral and anal sex, oh horny you and me
Let’s make babies, let’s make babies

Cum in me Singapore, cum in me and on my ass no more

Boys and girls, don't poke your butts,
Fark together, test your luck
Our birth rate is getting low, and we must stop it
To make babies, to make babies

Chorus:
Cum in me Singapore, cum in me Singapore
Cum in me and on my ass no more

(Repeated Chorus)

Cum in me Singapore Singapore (FADE OUT)

Amazing!

Bad translation says it all.

Haha.

Black's for sourmilk::Green's for Rubikins

stones only, all else not included

Never before have i thought i was a racist. Until today. yes. Today

Was on the train home from Clementi after deciding to meet up with Patrix after watching Victoria @ UCC. At around Kranji stop, this extended Indian Family came into the cabin and start to sporadically spread themselves in the cabin and occupying different. Before they arrive, it was all peace and tranquility (cos it's like 2300hrs). And all hell broke loose the moment they entered.

Speaking loudly in Tamil (which is already very irritating), they had kids running around the cabin in their heelys and were making some much noise. The worst were the adults. They had to sit so far apart from each other and were trying to "talk" to each other from one end of the cabin to the other end.

Irritating.

Can't they be considerate enough to sit next to each other and talk softly? It's not as if there are no seats. Plenty of seats available! I was suffering a serious headache with all the jibberish they were spouting and in the end, i just simply walk over to the next cabin to sit down.

Thought that might help resolve all irritance? I could still hear them in the next cabin

WTF?? moved to another cabin and enjoy the rest of my ride in peace and serenity! But they got off at Ang Mo Kio with me Damn! Had to suffer the same irritating antics that the "kind" indian family was putting up for the rest of the world to see.

The score? Indians 1 The rest of the world 0

Singaporeans are getting cocky and disgusting. Just this week alone, i seen so many gross acts that the arrogant and obnoxious Singaporean put up.

one Where's the decorum for going to a performance at a world class venue like Esplanade? Seen guys wearing sandals, crop pants, singlets, etc to performances and it looks so bad. no respect for the performers at all. Come on man. At the very least pants, T-shirt and covered toe shoes. Those people look like they are goign for some picnic at an air conditioned place. So out of place.

two Unruly Singaporeans (expats included) who are so full of themselves and start to create a din and probably a fool of themselves. Was watching MIX where just 10 mins into the show, they experienced technical glitches and had to let the audience wait for close to an hour and in the end, decided to cancel the show and have another show the following day. During the wait, some unreasonable people started clapping in beats, kinda protesting why they have to wait so long for the show to start. It's like prisoners protesting for food and using their chopsticks to create noise to attract attention. And most of them are started by expats who think they are the highest class of the world. Balls to you. Such a disgrace to the guest performing groups. And they were shouting to the performers, as though they were watching a soccer match. Man! call yourself an arts lover? Balls to you!

three Why are people critcizing what Mun Wai has done? He merely just shouted at people who dun give a damn about paying respect to performers who love their art very much. And people are saying things like oh he could have done it in a better way with less vulgarities; it will deter the students from wanting to watch performances in the future... People like them shouldn't even be allowed to enter if they are like that. It's clear that they dun even know how to appreciate the arts.

People who are arrogant and cocky should be shot to death. And never be allowed to reincarnate. They are just wasting space and air.

Bleah.

Butterflies - by Golden Bough Theatre tells a story of people who seeks love but cannot reach it. It is all about a family tragedy as well as a social event. They become so despairing when they fail to get the satisfsction of their longing that they initiate a chain of tragedies.

"Love leads to sorrow; love leads to fear." is the idea from which the whole play has been created. The desire of love leads to disorder and violence, and ends up in tragic destruction. Through the strong emotion and energy radiated, the fear and the sadness behind violent behavious and the cruelty caused by unsatisfied desire are revealed.

It is a tragedy about a family made of a couple and two daughters. The wife loves her husband deeply, but the love spirals downwardly in her anxiety of not being able to control and possess her husband. However, her husband is a wanderer in different relationships and affairs, who just cannot find a place he feels belonging to.

His mistress is an independent woman who asks for more freedom than commitments in a relationship. But when she graudally finds that the man has no love but lust for her, she still cannot help falling into despairs.

The two daughters have grown up in their father's indifference and their mother's torture. The older girl is an innocent lady who falls in love with her father, and commits suicide when she finally learns that the unity is impossible. The younger one does not know how to love, for she hasn't learned it from her parents. The image of her mother going mad in crazy desires of love keeps haunting her. So she makes the same mistake by marrying a greedy man and numbing herself in a relationship without love.

The desire of love leads to disorder and violence, and ends up in tragic destruction.

Beautiful story eh? It has got to be the most "colourful" show i have ever seen. Whatever hokkien expletives that you know, it all were being shouted in the show. Throughout the show. Such strong themes are found in the show. But i learnt something. In life, we must never demand too much. Enough is enough. And no matter what kind of obstacles you meet, or how down you are, there is always hope. Hope is present everywhere.

Every taiwanese production i have seen has been excellent. Maybe Singapore theatre should learn something from it.

Isn't it weird how some days are just simply boring and plain, while some are just simply full of surprises and meaningful?

Well, today's definitely a day where it's full of surprises!

Started the day like a tai tai. Went to settle my driving lessons stuffs and headed down to Junction 8 because i needed to get some stuffs and since i'm out already, might as well do soemthing productive rather than coming out again another day. Spent the morning with a cup of tea in one hand and the Straits Times in another. OMG! when was the last time i actually did that? love to do this for the rest of my life. Went round trying to buy my stuff but seriously nothing to buy. And i wonder why.

While resting at home to prepare for tonight's show Butterflies by Golden Bough Theatre, saw this newsflash on TV. I thought to myself:"must be some kind of terrorist attack or something that happened really huge maybe somewhere around the world

No.

What the hell!!! just when i have ORD-ed only like 5 days ago and only this thing is implemented??? couldn't it have come earlier like maybe 2 months ago??? what the fuck!!!! and people who went in later are allowed to ORD in like 2 weeks time!!! what the hell?? it's so freaking unfair!!! And i think there's going to be so much repercussions because of this implementation. Manpower allocation is going to be bad.... haha!!! god damn u SAF!!! and when u think this is unfair, what about those below the rank of CPL? they are already serving only 2 years now. So after this implementation, are they only going to serve 18 months?? madness!!!

Got an email from Lia today. I'm so happy. It's amazing how a simple email can brighten up someone's day and do wonders. I had a SMS saying

I'm glad i managed to work wonders for people. And like what rubee said: True Friends are the ones who stood by you when u need them. So apt.

I'm so tired, and affected by what i saw at the play today. More after i wake up!

Out!

It seems as though it's the season finale. The Power of 4 is now left with me in this little island of Singapore. One's in Canada, the other's in Japan, and the last on on the little island of Pulau Ubin undergoing OBS for his scholarship. I'm so bored. There's no one to keep me company.

Friends are experiencing weird phases of their lives. And i wonder why. Maybe they should just take a step back and the world's a better place. Take heart, peeps!

I'm so disgusted with myself for what i did....

Mommie's been babysitting this child from her workplace for months. Always thought this child is one little boy who is cheerful and playful, typical of little boys. Then today, i realise that it was right for my parents to have me and my sister, 2 children instead of only 1.

Out of nowhere, he came to my bedside and told me tearfully "i want mummy"... my gosh! tears were rolling down this little boy who sported punk hairstyle when he came over today. I was shocked. Very shocked.

He just wants company. People to play with him. I couldn't possibly do that. too old for him. too tired then. I tried pacifying him. Mommie searched his bag to see what toys he had brought along - 2 power rangers toys.

I told him to play. He obliged. But there was this emptiness and boredom in his eyes when he attempted to play with the toys to kill time. Tears keep rolling down. So pitiful.He just want to have dinner soon cos he knows that one he starts having dinner, his mommie will come and pick him up.

I wouldn't have known how an only child can survive when he/she has got no playmate during childhood. I made a resolution. 2 kids is the minimum for me next time

The look on his face still haunts me.

What a dissappointment. The first Arts Fest show i went to was so bad, the choreographer ought to be shot! Watched Swan Lake City by National Theatre of Northern Greece with Mel today @ Esplanade. Seeing that it was an Asian Premiere, thought it will be of at least some standard. But nooooooooo... it was so bad that i had to admit i dun understand a single bit of how the story evolved. Maybe i ought to read the programme again and find out what the choreographer is thinking when he did this piece. The dancers were great though, expressed the movements of swans excellent and so livelike. And i truly admire the lady dancers in the show. They danced top naked and had to row around the floor and do really action pact movements. Dun they feel pain and tired with those 2 volleying in all directions? Ouch. Ouch. Ouch!

Anyway... i did this little collage of some of the MMS that i have took on my not-so-reliable NOKIA 7250 that is constantly dying on me. These are just some. Limited MMS sending service for my phone cos my SMS usage is so high.. will send some monthly and then i will do a larger collage. Got some really weird pictures in my phone. Haha!

From left to right:
1st row: me acting dead at Mark's place; Mark, June and Me @ Junction 8; AJ Ice; Nic, Rubee and Me waiting for Boon to try on his shirt @ U2; Rubee with her Shrekheadgear
2nd row: Kai @ Goodwood Hotel; Jan and Nic @ Hollywood Secrets; Grannie's Candid Shot; Makkie as Shrek; "Huay" that i sewes for Rubee's party
3rd row: Nic, Rubee and Me again.. error; Me in the pool; Rubee's mad with her Shrekheadgear; Kaiwei, Me and Shaowei @ Mess; My favourite Stress reliever - Tami
4th row: Jan chewing on Rubee's ears; MWO Toh @ Sig Anniversary Dinner; My favourite Timberland sweater; Jan with her ears; Piglet in the Car
5th row: Siyang and Me; Tekong on the day when robbers inflitrated; Ding and Chris - my storemen; me and June @ Mark's place; my leg in cast after operation

More tomorrow!

Some how or rather, i dun feel happy being able to ORD. Some how or rather, i feel i've let down certain number of people because of my inability to finish up my work.

Kai said i'm too strict with myself. Maybe it's true. Maybe it's just a passing phase.

Let sleep make me forget all the unpleasant matters and await a beautiful morning where i can go collect my beautiful pink i/c

Time passes by real slow. It's been 2 years plus since i threw my cap on the parade squares of tekong.

Beautiful memories stay with me please. The rest: just f*&k off.

Yawnz!

It's amazing how the world consists of these 2 types of people. Nothing amazing actually also lah. It's either you hate them or love them.

Let's just start with the people we hate. Saw 3 different types today: the apple polisher, the faltering, and the unreasonable. And the best of all, you see them all in the army. Let's not name names here, cos could get me into a lawsuit.

The Apple Polisher just so happen to let me know that he tickled somebody's (my boss) balls by accident. So many times he tried doing that to me (meaning he actually suck up to my boss) behind my back, only to have me finding out the truth. Not that i hate this kind of people, but it simply just disgust me to the max. Maybe digusting is an understatement. I just cannot stand sucking up. Kiss my ass man!

The Faltering one is such a joke. Someone i actually respect a lot in the past, but not so anymore after what happened today. Always "this will be the last time we will talk to him... if he disagrees anymore, we dun care lor...".. I've heard this so many times that I refuse to believe anything he says anymore. When he is up there trying to bang table with the Bastard, he just falters and sings to the Bastard's tune. What happened to the hack-care attitude and gungho-ness? what happened to the i-willstand-by-your-stand approach? What we get is the I-understand-your-point-now-but-may-change-again-after-being-confused-by-the-bastard weakling who is so fickle-minded and easily swayed by the bastard's confusing but illogical statements. You want respect from me? Dream On!

The Unreasonable is like the most common character one can find in any military organisation. Easily recognisable as the one with at least crabbies on their shoulder epaulettes, even though chocolates bars may also signal unreasonable bastards, think they have a lot of experiences which young officers can tap knowledge from, shout at people as though surbordinates are their dogs that they can order around, and a whole lot more. Classic example from the Bastard again. Sulking his face (most probably feeling sore because moi refuses to acknowledge him as Sir when moi is 1 x freaking 2-chocolate bar junior officer who is so full of himself), refusing to listen to moi who knows exactly what to do and keeps refuting my views and opinions and insists on using his methods (which doesn't work at all and totally illogical and still calls himself the triple HQ head of department what a joke). Constantly putting the blame on me, keep harping on the fact that it is very late now and we must submit the freaking report. Izzit my fault? N-O! What he wants now is exactly what i have handed in 3 months ago which he says is wrong... Women are fickle minded animals? I think useless bastards are worse, or the WORST. Doesn't he realise that he is the cause of all the delays? If you are so f*&king concerned about the report submission, why go for HLS when there is work to be done It's very simple to just give instructions and set deadlines. But if you dun even give a f*&king concern and attitude to assist as a consultant body to 3 miserable surbordinates whose total pay per month is less than your freaking pay, i think the problem lies with the Useless Bastard and not us.

In recent reports in the paper, Ministry of Defence has the highest expenditures amongst all the ministries. Main reason? There are just too many useless regulars in the SAF. And worst of all, they are being paid so highly. Of course i have seen really nice people in the SAF... but they are just a handful. There are just too many useless regulars out there.

Call me mean, i dun care. All those who offended me real bad before during my army days- May you guys all be met with mishaps tne times more than what you have made me suffer. I can't be bothered with all the bad karma that will bounce back to me because you guys are the ones who made me suffer first, so to hell with you.

And then there are the nice people. People who are willing to lend a listening ear. Thanks to all and sorry to all to those who dragged me out of misery and those i snapped at.

After this incident, deep down inside me, i know there are only a few people which i am more inclined to pour my woes out to. people who really know me. people who i share a special bond with. or maybe it's just people who can relate to regarding certain matters. i dun know. but true friends are really hard to come by, and i appreciate those who came into my life and remained there till this day. Not going to say things like Friends forever cos they are just paying lip service to each other and indulging each other. True friends are those that stand by you whenever you need them.

All will change tomorrow when i collect my pink i/c tomorrow. Going to change my address(i wish!), change all contacts (even more impossible) so that nobody can contact me from army. I want to desert the life that i have lived for the past 30 months and start afresh. I want to be happier and be more optimistic. I want to be a better person.

I just need time.

The past week has been relatively okie... even though i am sick and trying to avoid calls from the office....Here's the weird stuffs i have been seeing the past week!

::neighbours playing badminton while drying babies' nappies::

::Bedsheet that mommie bought during GSS. It says I love daddy and Mummy::

::Urban dream capsule::

::the four guys are damn funny and silly::

Just came back from Liting's birthday... she had a great party... and met up with the crazy gang from secondary school... here's a pic!

::pic with the birthday girl::

Too tired.. off to sleep now!

More later....

I hate my room... it is infested with mosquitoes! getting so many bites that i am losing sleep and sick now... Damn!

Anyway... yesterday had been a good day... met up with the platoon for a meal.. turnout was great.. didn't expect patrick to garner that kind of support. Here's a glimpse of what happened!!

::The ever weird 47/02 SOCC::

::the platoon again when it's not so organised::

::Mervyn and Johnnie::

::Patrix whacking Shi Shun since Zhihao wasn't around::

::The guys... Jacob, Zhonghan, Yifan, Johnnie and Aloysius....::

Met up with Aloysius and Karen later for coffee and man.. it's been such a long time since we met up and chat... but always felt so comfortable around them... treating me like their little brother!! and they are such a cute couple.. always rushing them to get married so that i can be their wedding planner..haha!! Praying hard for them! While at the coffee joint... we were playing with this little girl who sat next to us... isn't she cute

Earlier in the morning, went down to Tan Chong Motors to collect the new car... just love it!!! haha!!! Take a look!

::the new car!!! which i will most probably have a chance to drive it around::

::hope this number will strike 4D::

::the HUGE piglet that i bought for the car but it was obstructing daddy's view::

More later...Out!

Farewell Cookie!

Cookie...(the name of the old car given by my sis) is gone... sold it to the car dealers and ready to be scrapped. In turn, we are getting Cream - a brand new Nissan Sunny... (name's really weird.. thanks to my weird sis.. see the relation Cookies and Cream?)... Let's remember the good times that Cookie served the Tan Family well... haha!

It was said that when Singapore decided to build the original MRT line back in the 80's or 90's, the government was advised not to do it. Then PM Lee Kwan Yew seek the advice of this powerful reverend called Hong Chuan. The reverend explained to SM Lee that the reason why Singapore is so prosperous is because the island has a dragon lying under its land and that is the main reason why we are so thriving as a nation.

But there was a strong need to build the train system because the government deems so. Reverend Hong Chuan advised that there are certain areas that the soil must NOT be dug, as it will disturb the dragon from its "sleep". SM Lee took his advice and built the line as instructed.

However, with regards to the recent spate of industrial accidents that our nation has encountered, it seems as if the government has disturbed the "dragon" that is sleeping under the soils of our nation.

Myth or Fact?? You decide....

More later...

:-)